High Fidelity 18: Somewhat Damaged

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk.
New Moon, Stephenie Meyer


1.  Somewhat Damaged - Nine Inch Nails
"How could I ever think?
It's funny how everything that swore it wouldn't change is different now
Just like you would always say 'we'll make it through'
Then my head fell apart, and where were you?"

2.  Astronaut (A Short History of Nearly Nothing) - Amanda Palmer
"Is it getting easy to pretend
That life goes on without you in the wake
And can you see the means without the end
In the random frantic action that we take?"

3.  Dying - Hole
"And now I understand
You leave with everything
You leave with everything I am
Withering
And now I know that love is dead
You've come to bury me..."

4.  Never Is A Promise - Fiona Apple
"You say you'll understand - you'll never understand
I say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in
You don't know who I am
You say I'll need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise
And I'll never need a lie."

5.  The Day After - Sunshine State
"Love will get you through anything
But a day like today
They tell me there's always more fish in the sea
This one got away...
On the day after, the future looks lonely
But at least now I'm too tired to cry..."

6.  Early Winter - Gwen Stefani
"It's sad
The map of the world is on you
The moon gravitates around you...
The sun's getting cold; it's snowing
Looks like an early winter for us..."

7.  Tallymarks - Thao Nguyen
"That same winter my old man made tracks
And I did too - but I came back
So don't don't don't explain love to me
Love love love is not why we leave...
I drop drop tears like tallymarks
And I'm keeping score, so I keep us apart
But I think I might miss you enough to say so..."

8.  Brighter - Paramore
"Without you, I will feel so small
And if it ends today
I'll still say that you shone brighter than anyone
Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?"

9.  The Grace - Neverending White Lights w/ Dallas Green
"Angels say they can make you suffer
Give and take like a vicious lover...
You're not coming back to me; these things, they will never be
I'm so used to being wrong - so put me where I belong
I'll get back to you - God knows I'll try
But I still lose..."

10.  Done Wrong - Ani Difranco
"How could you beg me to stay
Reach out your hands and plead
Then pack up your eyes and run away
As soon as I agreed?"

11.  Try Not To Breathe - R.E.M.
"I will try not to burden you
I can hold these inside
I will hold my breath until all these shivers subside
Just look in my eyes
I will try not to bother you
I have seen things that you will never see
Just leave it to memory, me
I shudder to breathe..."

12.  All Dressed Up - Veruca Salt
"You don't even notice me
Moving you like a ton of glaciers
You don't even notice me
Soothing you like a long lost sister
No you don't even care...
I'm all dressed up, and you're just a song..."

13.  Hey Jupiter (Dakota version) - Tori Amos
"No one's picking up the phone
Guess it's clear he's gone
And this little masochist is lifting up her dress..."

14.  To Be Free - Emiliana Torrini
"Once in a house on a hill
A boy got angry
He broke into my heart...
It shouldn't hurt me to be free
It's what I really need to hold myself together
But if it's so good being free, would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself?"

15.  Wasted Time (live) - The Eagles
"And the hours go by like minutes,
And the shadows come to stay
So you take a little something to make them go away...
Sometimes to keep it together, you got to leave it alone."

16.  White Flag - Dido
"I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
I cause nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of 'it's over' then I'm sure that that makes sense
But I will go down with this ship
I won't hold my hands up and surrender..."

17.  Maybe - Kelly Clarkson
"Someday, when we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe...
Should know better than to touch the fire twice..."

18.  I Hope Your Heart Runs Empty - Neverending White Lights w/ Scott Anderson
"Stole a look away from your eyes
Stole a look and finally paid your price
Tethered fresh, trampled thoughts, look for me
Look at this face
Everywhere there's new mistakes..."

19.  Try, Try, Try - The Smashing Pumpkins
"And we have survived
Try to hold on
And no one should deny
We tried to hold on to the pulse of the feedback current
Into the flow of encrypted movement..."

20.  It's All Over But The Crying - Garbage
"Certain things turn ugly when you think too hard
And nagging little thought change into things you can't turn off
Everything you think you know baby
Is wrong...
Now I can't walk back
I can't leave behind..."

21.  The Scientist - Coldplay
"Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said this was easy
But no one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start..."

22.  Konstantine (live) - Something Corporate
"My Konstantine
I watch her spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said
Did you know I miss you...
I'll always miss you."